Friday, January 3, 2014

Now That We've Survived The Holidays


     It’s amazing how vicious your can imagine yourself being to the ones who have done the most harm to you. With your judgmental and dysfunctional family, you don’t seem to know how to conduct yourself around those who have left you with scars. So you may just choose to get away from it all. Start a new chapter of life elsewhere. But if you are a dependent, you also have a lot of weight to carry. You have no choice but to jump through the hoops until you reach the finish line, when you’re then set free to start a new life; one with no regrets of leaving the tormented family dynamics behind. Life happens so quickly sometimes that changing gears may be the only responsible action to take when relationships crumble to no fault of your own.
     It’s just difficult to know that others who you thought had your back could instead turn a broken family situation from bad to worse all on the premise that it was your fault for leaving in the first place.

      Haven’t a lot of us been there before? Doesn’t the feeling of abandonment haunt us for the rest of our lives? I was abandoned 5 years ago, and that feeling sure as hell isn’t going away anytime soon.  
       Not until I get to decide, for myself, who I spend my holidays with.


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